packing was the weirdest thing...i'd say that i've ever done, but i don't know what i've done...i felt as if i were stealing everything...i rummaged through the closet and packed all the clothes, shoes, books, and cds i thought i might need...i found a credit card and two debit cards...don't know the pins, but i should be able to use them anyway...luckily, there was only one honda on the street...after i put everything in the car i went back to the apartment to leave a note for the person who lived there...your basic 'i'm sorry, but i have amnesia and i'm leaving to find myself' kind of note...i was pleasantly surprised to see a map of the u.s. in the car...the good news is that i'm on the west coast...that eliminates driving west...as i drove down a nearby street, i saw a sign for palm reading...what the hell...maybe the answer is in my hand...as i walked in the door she looked at me and said, you are about to start a long journey...must have seen my car as i pulled up...i can't give you a reading...i'm sorry, i know i didn't have an appointment, i just thought you could...that's not why...to see your future, i must see your past...as you don't have a past, i can't give you a reading...what do you mean...of course i have a past...you woke this morning and had no idea who you are...you can't remember anything...i'm sorry, but i can't help you find the answers you seek...can you at least tell me what i should do to find them...why do you feel you need to know who you were...or why this has happened to you...perhaps it happened to you because you wanted it to...what do you mean...i wanted this to happen to me...i don't know...all i can see is that your aura is filled with contentment...that makes me think that, in some way, you wanted this to happen...maybe you have wanted to start over for so long that when you went to sleep last night, your desire was so strong it became reality...so you think my journey should not be about finding out who i am...this is a gift...you can completely reinvent yourself...what if you did find out who you were and you don't like who that person was...there are a multitude of people who wish they could forget their past and start over...now's your chance...but what if i didn't want this to happen...what if i liked the person i was...then why have you abandoned that person...your life starts now...you can waste what is left of it searching for what was...or embrace that you know nothing and begin to experience life anew...i stood there staring at her for several moments...i hated to admit that she made some sense...how much do i owe you...i haven't given you a reading...you owe me nothing...but you've given me some clarity...surely that's worth something...just go live the life you are meant to live...live it to the best of your ability...that's payment enough...