IT'S GOOD TO BE BACK

So I've finally returned to the land of the internet. And I thought I'd blog a little. I was reading a friend's blog the other day and he had posted lyrics to a really good song. I got to thinking-maybe I should do the same. The first song that came to mind is a song that (however much I hate to say it, and I do) changed my life. Over 3 years ago I had this cd playing in my car endlessly. For several months I heard this song atleast 2 times a day. Then one night I listened to it for the first time. I couldn't stop crying. I have never had a song sum up my life (at that point) so well.

NUMB

I'm tired of being what you want me to be

feeling so faithless

lost under the surface

I don't know what you're expecting of me

put under the pressure

of walking in your shoes

(caught in the undertow

just caught in the undertow)

every step that I take is

another mistake to you

I've

become so numb

I can't feel you there

become so tired

so much more aware

I'm becoming this

all I want to do

is be more like me

and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me

holding too tightly

afraid to lose control

'cause everything that you thought I would be

has fallen apart right in front of you

(caught in the undertow

just caught in the undertow)

every step that I take is

another mistake to you

(caught in the undertow

just caught in the undertow)

and every second I waste

is more than I can take

But I know

I may end up failing too

but I know

you were just like me

with someone disappointed in you

Linkin Park, Meteora

Those of you who knew me then know why this song meant so much. Fortunately, this song no longer applies to me; however, whenever I have doubts about why I am where I am today-I listen to it again.